First of all, thank you Dawn and Kate and all the facebook folks who cheered me on and up. You guys rock. Today was much, much better. Even just writing it all down yesterday and admitting to the panic was enough to bring it down several notches. I took some time and carefully wrote up a list of things that need doing and important dates like papers due and quizes and exams. Just seeing it listed out made it easier because suddenly I didn’t have to be afraid I was missing something.
TT was superhubby, and even though he’s working sometimes three jobs a day, he took over Wallacing for the entire evening and I got 200+ pages read. At school today we had Anatomy lab and, beyond the cool which I will tell you about in just a mo, there was no homework assigned. Thank you, Jebus. I was able to stay afterward and watch some videos I have to watch for Speech Science class.
I knew that there was no way through this without the first two weeks being terrifying. Until I know just what kind of detail I need to have and how each prof expects and grades work, I won’t know how to allocate resources. There’s also that extra niggling worry that comes with knowing that at some point I’m going to be working with a mom or a kid or a person who really needs my help, and I will need to know what I’m learning now. This isn’t high school, or even undergrad learning. I knew that I’d be feeling the pressure and yesterday it really hit.
Luckily, I’ve moved past the stage. Another ability I have now that I did not have even a short while ago is the ability to know that if I start and keep going, eventually I will be done. Also, how much organization helps me stay calm. It’ll happen again, I’m sure, and I’ll be here going AGGGGHHHRGHGHGHGH! soon.
Even with doing work today I was able to get home early enough and work hard enough that I got the bulk of the waiting housework done. I cleaned toilets and did laundry and dishes and took care of the cats and cleaned up and mowed the yard and gave the dogs a bath and generally got the house back in a state of non-embarassing-stink mode, which is my favorite house mode.
I’m feeling much, much better and will do some more reading after Wallace goes to bed tonight. There’s a lot on my plate, but I’ve been working every day and in that respect I’m ahead of the game.
Also, it’s my birthday tomorrow, and I’m going to try and get away with doing minimal homework this weekend. W00T!
Funny story: The problem with my email was apparently that there was another Christine Poopyhands at the school who is still employed by the school. Her name is now Christine Chowderchunks because she’s married, but in the system all Christine Poopyhands mail is still going to her. Unfortunately there’s nothing to be done about that. She gets dibs.
They were going to make me Christine “L” Poopyhands, thinking that that would help, but unfortunately Chowderchunks’ middle initial is also “L”. Crap.
I begged them for “Krissy Poopyhands” or “Christine Poopyhands2″ or something. Unfortunately, they decided that they just had to do “Christine X Poopyhands”. And of course I had to send out an email to everyone letting them know that my email had changed. I’m not only the only one with a middle initial, but it looks damned dorky/impressive.
I am now the only one with a Speech and Language Pathology actual Superhero Name:
Krissy X
I have a hand sign and everything. Do not fuck with me.
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